self fulfilling prophecy

i told everyone that i didnt like you,

so that i can convince myself i didnt.

almost lover

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?

So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

- Almost Lover / A Fine Frenzy

now that, im out of your life,
and you are out of mine,
tell me, are you happy?
were you happy?

managing a feeble smile

Aren't you glad you didn't stay with me
Bohemian life and instability
You went off to university
And you took your love away from me
Endless nights, lovers, friends and fun
Big-City lights, your new life had begun

And as the world turns on and on
Love is lost and love is won,
laughed and cried when we were young
You went your own way.
I survived
And did you ever see everything inside of me?

So now you live your life in luxury
Double glazing, turbo washing machine
And your fiance is boring as hell
You never laugh, you're both professional
You know that film.
That I'd started to write?
It's a box-office smash, I'm on the next flight
To get my award on TV tonight
Looking back,
I think I've done alright

And as the world turns on and on
Love is lost and love is won,
laughed and cried when we were young
You went your own way.
I survived
And did you ever see everything inside of me?

And as the world turns on and on
Love is lost and love is won, laughed and cried when we were young
You went your own way.
I survived
And did you ever see everything inside of me?

Oh, aren't you glad you didn't stay.
Oh aren't you glad you didn't stay with me?
Oh, aren't you glad you didn't stay with me?
You didn't want my love,
So aren't you glad, aren't you glad, aren't you glad?
Aren't you glad, aren't you glad,
Aren't you glad, aren't you glad

-Arent you glad / Eason chan.

i cant say for you,
but im glad for myself
when i break myself free of you.

not the case for me.

i run my best,

my very best,

away from you.

you cant see the end, can you?

Don't tell me the sky is the limit
when there are footprints on the moon!

because of you

sillyness overflowing

and i cant stop smiling.

this should last

still awaiting your next kiss,

'cause the previous lingers.

only one for me

with my happy feet,

im going on a search for my happy seat.

if we promise to,

, this is a lifetime issue.

containment

back then,

a hundred stars i folded for you,

a million love they went into.

the fingers bled

and then, you fled.

a thousand miles apart

there are times when i miss a particular place alot,

a manifestation of withdrawal syndromes,

even though it was so long ago,

i really dont mind returning.

bring me along anytime.

take the step

move away,

right away from the spot which hurts the most.

if anywhere else gonna hurt,

it will be less than the spot which hurts the most.

just to be told

“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction. ”
— Chuck Palahniuk

We all need to be assured sometime, that we are worth more than just a presence.

because you love it

every time i see a vespa, you come into mind.

its almost as though i can see you driving a vespa.

hang in there babe,

learn how to exercise emotional distancing,

or burn out much sooner than expected

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you are a need,

not a want.

drenched

only in the rain,
that i cant get too sure if that was the rain or the tears
or rather, i dont need to be sure which was what.

rain in the eyes.

im fine.

if it doesnt,

im only happy when it rains,

so can it rain now?

please?

dont be lost

battered and torn,

i cant find the strength to go on.

where's my return trail?

aint nothing but a heartbreak

the old you.

or the old me which had you?

when everything melts

goodnight, goodbye.

never be too eager to grow up

hold the child in you,

mr. superman.

the fearless and the bold -

we all tried to follow.

when was the last time you remember

that you forget about me.

did you forget about me?

phonological block

dont tell me what i cannot hear
the sound doesnt travel

to the ear

neither can it reach the heart

dont leave me too soon

i promised you a house

so that you can live comfortably.

i promised you a house,
wait for me.

the placement test

at least not in your heart.

i cant rewind the days

it was supposed to be a good day,
but it didnt turn out that way.

we promised to be happy.

are you?

elpoepylenol

because, its only then,
they wouldnt have to feel the loneliness.

should you ever forget

love, write when you feel like it.
dont lose your ability.

a separate entity

you and me, were never "we"

your haunting absence

have a good trip,

though its just a week,

i wish its longer.

honestly, idontwantyouback.

idont.idontmissyou.i wont miss you.

but i still dont know how to say bye.

goodluck.

take me away

to capture the same sun around the world.

in case everything fails

when words become smaller,
i shall focus them with pictures.
when images become inappropriate
i shall be content with stillness.

assurance or comparison

i love you (too).

that doesnt mean i dont love you as much as you love me.

not in lesser intensity

not in lesser quantity,

but i really did love you,

even though you never liked the (too).

ifyouneedahug

enveloping sunshine -
embrace it.

the only thing that'd hug you wholeheartedly.

in a silent rawr..

RAWR! RAWR! RAWR!

when i say it three times, i mean it.

dont be too stingy

if you can afford it, give it.

dont blame the innocence

make things simpler.

ambitions can be too big to handle at times.

dream small. dream happy.

if i can fly to you

i wanna hug you,

hug you tight

hug you as you fight those tears.

hush dear, you be strong and good.

things get too narrow

we insist that we are right sometimes.

take a step back to see a bigger picture.

you take your steps

dont turn back.

good. dont you dare turn back.

if you do, i dont know if i can then bear to leave you.

i have a habit of watching people walk away, rather than people seeing me off.

its such a sad feeling, which i dont want them to feel it.

so i watch them walk away.

that day you walked away, i cant bear it.

so i didnt get to see your last backview.

a dear friend once said,

enough is enough.

enough is sufficient.

the overt rebel

either you dont know how to read the signs

or you refuse to acknowledge,

but you are prohibited from my life.

in pen and paper,

i have a stash of letters,

which you will never get.

i never had the courage to send those out.

one day i will forget i have them.

erase that

draw your own smiley face

you depict your own life.

smile or frown when you feel like it.

emotions at peace

im not sad,
im just not happy.

even if the car stalls,

Erik: well, what do you want?

Me: know what i want? i don’t know what i want. i want a long car ride somewhere. somewhere anywhere far away and interesting.

retie the torn heartstrings

“Maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe… it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is… just… moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the un-returned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope. ”
~ He’s Just Not That Into You

im sure we are all made of better material
nevermind the broken wings.

to hold or to fight?

“Beware of the word friend.
It can often be used by men or the women that love them to excuse the most unfriendly behavior.
Personally, when I’m picking friends,
I like the ones who don’t make me cry myself to sleep. ”
~ He’s Just Not That Into You

friends dont come and go as they please.

they merely fade.

dont leave me alone

Where'd you go
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever
That you've been gone
- Where'd You Go, Fort Minor

im not sure if i can go on.
where did you go?
why didnt you bring me along,
so that i can go on.