(in my life)

apart from rain,
you're the best thing in my life.

truth is

i miss you.

i never learnt how to.

“I have this theory that the more important and intimate the emotion, the fewer the words are required to express it. For instance, in dating, “Will you go out with me?” Six words. “I think I care for you.” Five words. “You matter to me.” Four words. “I love you.” Three words. “Marry me.” Two words. So what’s left? What’s the most important and intimate word you can ever say to somebody? It’s “goodbye.” ”

— ~ J. Michael Straczynski

if there was ever a reason

because,
loving you is what i was trying not to do.
not loving you is what i was trying to do.

fizzling away through the lights

not everything have to be clear.
somethings are best left blur.
cause i really dont want to know.

right hand drive

when can i see the world from behind the wheel?
dont make me lose passion for the wheels.
i still wanna go against the wind at 120.

which mattered more?

i pretend that you are here.
but im not happy.
because you cant be.

though im happy at the same time,
cause you arent here.

reverberation

because the person meant something to you.

the significance is correlated to the strength of the words.

same for when its hurtful words.

made of concrete, perhaps.

sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out,

but to see who cares enough to break them down.

there was no truth in it

“I don’t want to lose you.’ His voice almost a whisper. Seeing his haggard expression, she took his hand and squeezed it, then reluctantly let it go. She could feel the tears again, and she fought them back. ‘But you don’t want to keep me, either, do you?’ To that, he had no response ” 

--Nicholas Sparks (The Rescue)

I'm sure you didnt mean it when you said
"You wont lose me."

with no map in hand

Where's the exit. I cant find it. That's why.

on the contrary

Damn it. I cant even feel you when you are near.

the difficult matter.

“Perhaps the most difficult choices to make are the ones that deny us what our heart wants most, because as it’s been said, without reason and without prudence, the heart wants what the heart wants, and more often than not, it will not be denied.”

Its when it matters alot that nothing is fine.
Your heart would not listen,
neither will it give in.
Denial is a pretence.
We never accept not having what our heart wants anyway.

pot calling the kettle black.

“Boys are stupid. We should throw rocks at them.”
— A wise 5-year-old

And we sometimes doubt the intelligence of the 5 year olds.
They may not be that ignorant afterall.
Maybe the 25 year olds are the silly ones.

the contrast effect.

when it is dark enough, you can see the stars.