carry me on your shoulders

i have nothing to be afraid of

when im standing on the shoulder of the giant

i'll sing my song

this may be the reason,

why im constantly singing.

hear me,

maybe you'd hear what i want to tell you.

its a long way down

i'll be there to catch, when you come crashing.

i cant promise,

but i'll try not to miss.

the soft whimper

i dont like them under the table,

i dont like them brushing against me.

maybe simply im afraid i'll kick them accidentally.

chapter seven

you're a story i cant tell anymore.

the irony of reality

all that's left behind
is what we cannot grasp.

negative correlation to life.

“As you grow, you learn more. If you stayed as ignorant as you were at twenty-two, you’d always be twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It’s growth. It’s more than the negative that you’re going to die, it’s the positive that you understand you’re going to die, and that you live a better life because of it. ”
— Mitch Albom (Tuesdays with Morrie)

i have yet to reach twenty two,
but im apprehensive about the arrival of the day.
its growth no doubt,
but its making a huge impact on life.

cracked up mind

we need to do better than this,

though you are just a line too far.

i cant help it that you are within reach,

but i cant reach out.

i cant cross that line.

Narcissist

most importantly,

dont forget me.

the next topic

“That was it: I expected something back. I expected something in return, some acknowledgement, anything really. Friendships also come to an end eventually and I’m deeply, deeply sad and sorry that ours has found its end. I didn’t want to go on without ever hearing from you again, but I guess we’re both too tired? You’re too tired to bother, I’m too tired to keep trying… I thought we would overcome everything this time, I really did, for the sake of all the great things that we’ve had together, but someone said “[…] don’t do anything expecting something back, sometimes you just have to accept it’s over and move on […]” or something along those lines. Acceptance doesn’t make it less hard, but I’m accepting, little by little. Sometimes I just miss your laugh when I say something stupid, then I think of it instead of saying it out loud and my heart skips a bit… You’re missed, just so you know if someday it makes any difference.”

this is what im feeling,
and you're just another tabletop story now,
though you're missed.

whats the number

i need something call hope

cause thats about the only thing that can pull me through

get me through the line.

how do parallels meet

“its as if we're heading off in the same direction
sharing the same orbit
if we both stay on the path and dont stray
we'll see each other again someday.”
-Naked Weapon

running on the same orbit,
somehow, i think its not possible to meet.
'cos there's no intersection.

albeit just for a while

i want to, i need to.

i have to.

before i cannot take it anymore.

constantly moved.

it is an action word.

be good to yourself

“i think i figured it out.

i do need to let go. there are so many things i’m still holding on to that i need to just let go of. and it needs to start with the summer before last.
i need to get rid of everything i’m still holding on to. burn those memories into the ground. find a new, better outlook on my life. start caring again. more importantly, start caring about myself and my family. start creating goals and meeting them. fix relationships. make new ones. tell the truth about how i really feel.

i just need to start over, and start better.

i’m not sure how i’m going to do that. but i know i have to. i have to start helping myself before i try fixing everyone else’s life. i need to find strength in who i am.

i need to find the good in myself. ”

sometimes,
all we need is just to breathe.
then we flip the card,
and start all over.
you are better than what you think.

you have me with you

i wish things werent so hard on you,

therefore i dropped on you softly,

just to hear from you.

why is it so hard to believe

in fact,
i care when you dont care.
i care that you dont care.